today for the first time in a very long time, i feel the sensation of missing you
i am not sure why
i think as this school year comes to an end, i am remembering all the plans we made for this summer
how much we wanted to do
how perfect we thought things would pan out
well they didn’t
this summer i am going to grow into a new person; in the best way possible
and i wish you got to see me grow
but its been a few days since we last really spoke
and its bizarre not hearing from you
but its the silence that i have been begging for, for a very long time
it was so nice knowing you
but not knowing you is exactly what i need
ok so lemme do a short thing about virginity/ tightness of vagina. Your vagina gets looser as you become more sexually aroused during intercourse. This is why when you normally put a finger in your vagina, its a lot tighter than when you put it in when you’re aroused. The myth that the vagina is tighter when you’re a virgin is caused by 2 things
1) cis men love the idea of “ruining” a woman’s body (as shown by porn) and they get some sort of sick pleasure from thinking that after having sex with a woman, she will never be the same again.
2) women are more anxious during their first time, which results in them being less sexually aroused and their vagina being more contracted.
if your have kids young enough, your vagina will literally return to it’s previous tightness. That’s how elastic it is. There is no way your vagina becomes “looser after having sex with lots of men”. that’s just slut shame-y bullshit.
Men who brag about shit like “her pussy was tight as hell for me. I ruined that pussy” are just bragging about the fact that they couldnt sexually arouse her enough for her to loosen enough. Which means they are awful at sex. They are bragging about being fucking awful at sex.
The only time your vagina becomes looser is with age and after multiple births.
Anyone who tell you differently is dumb.
*sips tea while reading the bolded*
I think that no matter how afraid I am of being alone, I can handle it
I think I am strong enough
And bright enough
To keep my own light aflame
Doesn’t it make sense?
I should be able to take care of myself and Carry my own head on my shoulders
It does feel awful to know that I put my entire life into something that I got very little out of
I just ended up drained and tired
High school is so typical